I tried to kill myself.

standing on a ledge, Suicide, revival, awakening, christian, love of God

This morning I felt the Holy Spirit prompt me to share my own personal experience with revival.  I thought I’d start with how I got saved.


It all began on a ledge.  Not the metaphoric kind that we sometimes use to describe difficult circumstances.  Mine was a real ledge – I was twelve years old and I was seriously considering suicide.

The circumstances that led me to let ledge were mainly geographic in nature.  I was raised overseas.  In 1991, when I was six,  my family moved to the Middle Eastern nation of Qatar where we would stay for the next eight years.  Continue reading

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That little book at the end

Until yesterday if you had asked me about the book of Philemon from the Bible would probably would have responded that it’s the little book at the back.  That was until I really read it.  I say “really read it” because I’ve read it before – more than once actually.  But I didn’t read it with the understanding I have now.  Let’s set up the scene. Continue reading

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Once and for all – Hebrews 9:26

It’s not often that you hear the word “abolish” used to describe the end of anything but slavery and as a result, it’s a powerful word.  It’s a word stuffed with emotional undertones that paints a graphic picture in the mind of tens of thousands of people, stolen from their homelands, stripped of their freedom and  forced into all sorts of unpleasantness.  It’s not a word to be used lightly or flippantly tossed around as slang. Continue reading

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Hebrews 11:3 – the voice of God

Hebrews 11:3 reads “By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.” NKJ

To properly understand this full meaning of this scripture we should look at the Greek meaning of the word “frame”. In verse three the word frame comes from the Greek word καταρτίζω (katartizō) which means to fashion, put in order, equip for the intended purpose, to join and to make perfect.  Continue reading

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Open doors and the Voice of the Lord

I was reading my Bible this morning and the Lord showed me, rather reminded me of something which He’s shown me before. It comes from the book of backs in the 16th chapter. It’s the story of how the Philippian jailer and all of his family are saved.

 

25 But at midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the prisoners were listening to them. 26 Suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken; and immediately all the doors were opened Continue reading

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The Near Collapse of Everything

Yesterday I had an encounter with someone who really hurt my feelings-  like REALLY hurt my feelings.  Felt completely rejected and alone and that hurt resonated deep inside.

While I knew I was hurting I couldn’t quite put my finger on why exactly I was in so much pain.  I mean, my wife experienced the same hurt and after a half hour or so seemed totally fine.  I was not fine, and didn’t say more than two words all the way home.

Once I got home I decided to take a walk.  I grabbed a satchel and tossed my Bible in it just for good measure and left.  Continue reading

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